So I started this thing when I was 15 or 16 and now I'll be 22 in a matter of days. I feel really stupid for half the shit I wrote in here but I guess I was 15 and on a lot of drugs and into a lot of stupid, and I do mean STUPID these. Now life is the furthest thing from what I expected, not in necessarily a good or bad way, just an unexpected way. Over the past six years I've graduated high school, moved to Georgia, got engaged, dropped out of college, started stripping, fell face first back into drugs, got un-engaged, moved to richmond virginia, kept stripping, got back into school, dropped out again, kept doing hard drugs, went to rehab, got back into school for the third time, and am working my way out of drugs. Jesus. I never expected life to go this way. I should be graduated from college and at least looking for a job. Rather, Im still dancing, making great money though, struggling to get my GPA up and sustain a life. I can't believe how fast this flew by. I have days that I wish i were 16 again just to be able to relive the lack of responsibility and fun. I mean I'm happy to be an adult but I just wish I could've seen how easy I had it. Reading back through these old posts makes me realize that god I was a whiney bitch. Things weren't that hard. It was never the end of the world. I wish that I had known that and just taken it in stride and enjoyed it. Finally though I feel like Im getting my shit together. It might have taken six years but, better late than never.
By the way, tomorrow, Austin Texas!